Cupcake says... Whats really going on?

Hello everyone! Well, I haven’t posted in awhile because, well, the truth is that I have had a lot going on and none of it I can really share. I have so much on my mind that I can’t think about anything superficial to write about on my bloggy-blog. I knew I was going to be in big trouble with the "The Man" (that’s what I now call MANdy, he he) if I didn’t get something on here soon! So here I am telling you nothing but it’s still the truth!
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. As for me, I would rather skip the holidays all together. Although, I am getting by with a lil help from my friends... See pic of me & my bff's new tattoos! They look like real spiders, huh? We got these on Friday. I also died my hair brown! Everyone was more shocked about the hair than the tattoo. I have always adored my red locks but I just felt I needed a change. Really, I thought it would be nice to go darker for the winter. Here's a pic!

I do have one other issue I can report… some of you may already know how much I have grown to hate my current field of insurance. I long to be in a profession in my field of study, psychology. I have closed the doors on my office for awhile now and all my agents work at home. I currently am only servicing existing clients. Well, long story short: I am graduating in a few weeks so I thought I should look for jobs in my field. True, I won’t be counseling anyone, true, I will make less money, but money is not what makes me happy. So, I have looked some and I have an interview next week! It’s coaching disabled people… along the lines of case management. I’m excited; I hope I get it or something that is rewarding. I have just been praying that God put me where I can be of use to Him. I would love it if any of ya could give me some extra in the prayer department & I’ll keep ya posted.

Cupcake says… Bad Monday.

On Monday, I was driving to my class deep in thought when I think I spot an open parking space right next to my building. I look behind me and throw my car in reverse only to slam into the person in my blind spot. It was totally my fault and I did a lot of damage to both of our cars. I knocked out the red cover on my brake light and pushed her door in. Luckily we were ok and we exchanged information then went to class. After class I ran to work and then I ran back to class after work for my evening class.

As if the wreck weren’t enough, this day just keeps getting worse. I was in about the same spot that I hit the lady earlier when a cop pulls me over. He informs me that my brake light was busted out. When I told him I had gotten into a wreck that day right where we were standing he tells me to put tape on it and as soon as he runs my license, I can go to class.

The officer comes back and tells me that my license is suspended and because I had gotten a ticket for driving under suspension in 1999 that I was going to jail today. I of course, have no idea that my license is suspended and I try to tell him that just isn’t possible because I have recently renewed my license and haven’t had a traffic ticket in many years. Although he really didn’t want to, he put me in the back seat. I was going to county but he would let me call someone to get my car.
My friend came and got my car, along with my purse so she could get my money to bond me out. When she went to post my bond, it turned into a huge mess. She had to pay 3 separate times totaling about $1,700. Every time she paid some tickets she would wait for me to get out for hours and call again. Every time she called, they told her I had more unpaid tickets! So I didn’t get out until about 22 hours later.

The sad part is that all of those "unpaid" tickets were actually paid almost 10 years ago! Luckily I am a good receipt keeper and am going to be able to get about half of my money back. I found almost all of the receipts but not all and I won’t get back all of the other bonding fees and jail fees (about $800). But even worse is the way I felt having to be in jail, locked up, stripped of my basic rights, privileges, and my voice. I had to be put in a cell where I couldn’t use the phone and had no contact with the outside world. I didn’t have my children and couldn’t speak to them. I wasn’t able to study for the test I had on Tuesday night or turn in my homework on Monday night. It was like I was in some nightmare that I had no control over. I felt as though I was raped, violated and tortured. When I got out, I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I couldn’t stop crying.

Today, it’s been 2 days and I am just glad to be out of jail. I am trying to remember that I didn’t cause what happened and I can’t change what happened either. So, I am trying to give those negative feelings over to God by praying about it every time those feelings pop up instead of focusing on them. I normally don’t focus on the negative parts of life and certainly do not want this to set the tone of this blog so I’ll ask for your prayers and close with that.